FAMILY
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S3 Round Robin (2025)
Chapter 9
Milly Rose
The
final glittering hours of Winterfest were fading. Clamoring children who had
taken the liberty of consuming too much sugar and not enough real food ran
hither and yon with their little trinkets and gifts from Mouse. (Much to the
frustration of Mary, but she said nothing. It was Winterfest, after all).
"I
cannot tell you how pleased I am that you are remaining here Below with
us," Father said to Devin, who was meticulously studying the chess board at
the quiet corner table. "My ragged old nerves can rest easy now. You are sure,
my boy, that you will be happy here?"
Devon
raised his eyes to study Jacob carefully. "There will be moments, I am
sure," he responded carefully, “when the old way will call to me. And in
those times, Father, just remind me of this right here, these memories, when
those moments come, all right?"
"And
when I am no longer here to remind you?"
A
muscle twitched in the man’s jaw at the idea, and Devon moved his pawn one
space and sat back in his chair. "When you have broken our hearts and left
us, where there is family left, there will always be others," he replied, gesturing
to where Susan sat with Alex, putting together a paper doll display Peter had brought
from Above.
Father
looked from Susan to Devin, an eyebrow raised. A knowing shine came to his
face, and he chuckled lightly. "Susan?"
Devin
simply nodded.
"Well,
can't say I saw that one coming, my boy, but I have often been surprised by the
actions of my sons, especially in the realm of romance. Do you think she also might
be interested?"
"Who
is interested in what?" Diana appeared next to them, having finally
slipped out of a group of girls who had asked her to put their shiny hair
accessories that Mouse gave to them in their assorted braids and curls. She had
been there for nearly a half hour and looked exhausted, although cheerful.
"I
was just discussing some important matters with Devon," Father replied
evenly, not missing a beat. "You look rather frazzled, my dear. Is
everything all right?"
"Ah,
Mouse and his tinsel hair things. A clever idea, to be sure, but I do not envy Mary
trying to
get
it back out of their hair tonight at bedtime." Diana smiled and
turned her head, showing them a curly tinsel bow nestled into her own hair. “I
regret my own decisions, but it cannot be undone now.”
Father
nodded dryly, trying not to laugh, but also appear sympathetic. "I see. If
William has any lard in the pantry, you might try a little of that if
needed."
Devon
laughed and stood. "If you'll excuse me, Father, I will see if Susan needs
any help.”
"Very
well. I will see you later, my boy."
"So,
he's staying?" Diana asked, settling into the vacated chair and surveying
the chess board carefully. "Are you okay with that?"
"He
has changed," Father replied. "A lot. I think his wandering feet have
brought him back to where he should have been all along, and didn't know
it."
"Where
would that be?" Diana asked, sitting back in the chair. "It's your
move by the way."
Father
took the knight with his rook, and steepled his fingers, resting his elbows on
the table.
"Home,
Diana. He's home."
"This
place is home for so many," she replied, her glance drifting over to where
Devin knelt with
Alex,
taping small wooden supports to the piece of cardboard that would be the
display for her
paper
dolls. A knowing smile lit up her face. "Ah. I see."
"Concerned
at all?" Father asked, carefully watching her face for any sign of her
feelings.
She
smiled softly. "Always, Father, just as you are. But we have to let life
play out, don't we?
Besides,
she would be good for him."
"Perhaps
so. But how are you doing, my dear? I know the last few weeks have been hard
for
you."
"Trying
not to think about it." She picked up her knight and took out a pawn.
"It will be a while
yet
before we can test, but every single day is going to feel like a year. I don't
know how we will wait that long, but we have no choice."
"Does
it matter?"
"What?"
Father
took out her knight with his bishop. "If this child has an anomaly of any
kind, does it
matter?"
"You
are asking me that, after raising Vincent?" Diana bit her lip.
"Sorry, that came out wrong. I
mean,
you know that people are not - as forgiving and accepting. Above - it's a
jungle out
there."
"I
know," Jacob Wells replied. "Above, yes, That will be hard. But in
here-" he pointed to his
chest.
"In here, Diana, does it matter."
"No,"
she replied quickly, then looked away, her face hidden by her hair.
For
a moment, she was silent. Father leaned forward, slipping a hand atop hers.
"Diana?"
Slowly,
she turned to look at him, tears tracking silently down her cheeks. His
eyebrows rose in
surprise,
and she spoke before he could say anything. "I don't want to sound like a
bad person."
"You
aren't a bad person."
"Well,
thanks. It's just that, I - I'm afraid. What if this child has severe
developmental troubles?
What
if I bring a child into this world, just to be laughed at by others and
ridiculed. Father, that
idea
pains me so much, sometimes I can barely breathe."
"Have
you spoken to Vincent about how you feel?"
"No,
We - we don't - share feelings, so I - I don't say much."
"Ah,"
he nodded wisely. "The Bond. Diana, dear, just because he had that with-
her- and not
with
you does not mean you are any less loved. Love is a funny thing. Catherine
saved him. At a
time
when he lost himself, she stepped in and brought him back to the light. And at
a time when
she
had been stripped of every dignity that belonged to her and left to die in the
dark and the
cold,
he brought her back to life. Those things, they leave an indelible mark
here." He gestured
to
his heart again. "And as you two navigate this new life, while living with
the gift of the old
one,
Jacob, your day will come. Will there be a Bond, as they had, who knows. But
Diana,
Vincent
loves you, as well as he can love, and if you do not share those feelings with
him, he
cannot
be there for you. Do not choose to walk alone, my dear. It is a very cold,
bitter walk."
XXX
"Thank
you for walking me home," Diana threw her coat onto the couch, and sank
into it's
depths.
Vincent
sat down beside her, his face a mask of concern. "You hardly said a word
on the way over. You seem bothered – distracted - are you alright?"
The
dismissal of "Oh, I'm just tired," was right there on her lips, but a
glance at his deep, caring
eyes
made her swallow the words. She leaned toward him and he wrapped his arms
around her,
settling
her securely against his broad chest.
"Diana," he said softly, so
many things being said with only a word.
"I'm
afraid," she finally whispered, so softly that she feared he had not
heard.
But
the way his heart beneath her ear fluttered at the word, and his arms tightened
subconsciously around her told her that he had heard, and felt her emotions.
"About
the future?"
"Yes."
"Dearest
Diana," he said softly, "You always have a home with us. You know
this. And no matter
what
happens, this child will be so loved and cherished. You really do underestimate
how
protective
that everyone gets over children. Even William will resort to closing the
kitchen door
so
that the clattering won't travel down the tunnels to the nursery and wake a
sleeping baby."
"But
- what if - " her voice trailed off and he waited. When she said nothing
else, he crooked a
finger
under her chin and lifted her face to his.
"What
if?"
"What
if I am not a good mom?"
His
eyebrow raised quizzically, but there was no judgement in his eyes.
"Diana, you are a good mom. It's a little late to be a bad one. You
couldn't be, not if you tried for a million years."
"But
what if-"
He
placed a finger to her lips, shushing her. "No. No, Diana. We don't do
what-if’s. This child, this creation from our shared love for each other,
whether it looks like me or you, or has Fragile X or not, or is a boy or a
girl, or lives here or Below, no matter what, you are enough. You are enough for
that child, and you are enough for me."
As
the winter moon rose over the bleak nighttime, bathing the shadows in mellow
light, Vincent and Diana talked long into the night as he detangled the
filaments of tinsel from her hair. There were tears, embraces, slow and calming
kisses in the light of the single lamp, caresses that soothed the pains of
tomorrow.
And
as he eventually slipped into the shadows somewhere around four AM, as the glow
of early dawn kissed the horizon, he left behind the promise that he would be
there for this child. He would be there for Devin. He would be there for Alex.
Blood
does not always make one family. Love, chosen to be given, does. And she knew,
as she turned out the light and whispered goodnight to the growing child within
her, that no matter what the weeks ahead held for their Tunnel family, this
child would have a future as bright as all of the stars above New York
combined.
Her
family would make it so.